This week is emotional. Things have been affecting me on a whole different level. I have received emails, texts , Facebook messages and even flowers being delivered, each of these have had the capacity to bring it on. It is that very special cry, it is not pretty, it is not sweet, it is…the “UGLY Cry.” Actually I have pretty much mastered both versions of it. They are as follows: “the sneak attack” and “the slow build.” As of late I have experienced the sneak attack – basically the going from a shiny happy gal to ugliest of crying. Seeing this post first thing in the morning, for example, when I opened up my Facebook and found this post from my Aunt:
I love this quote, I love my Aunt and I love that she shared it with me. And because it is wedding week, a wildly emotional and life changing week this hit me in a way that instantaneously brought on the tears- the “sneak attack” in its purest form.
The slow build is one that I am certain will show it's ugly little face during speeches from our loved ones at rehearsal and wedding day. This is the one where for example you are watching a movie (like the Stepmom) and in the scene with Susan Sarandon and Julia Roberts when they are sitting across from one another having a touching conversation at dinner about Susan's character's imminent death and then BAM she brings out the seeing her daughter on the wedding day…not familiar? It goes a little bit like this: Isabel (Julia's character): “Look down the road to her wedding. I'm in a room alone with her, fixing her veil, fluffing her dress, telling her no woman has ever looked so beautiful. And my fear is she'll think, “I wish my mom were here.” Jackie (Susan's character): “And my fear is… she won't.” This gets me. EVERY. TIME. Heaving, blubbering mess of a cry.
I also must share another example of the “slow build” that I am certain might happen to some of my own loved ones on wedding day. A few years back, I was coordinating a wedding for a beautiful family. My bride told me during planning meetings that she was going to “surprise” her father with their dance song. I thought this was a great idea and I was beyond excited to see how he reacted when the took the dance floor. When the day arrived, I was standing alongside the dance floor, where I typically do, as I truly love these moments on wedding day. I started off just fine, laughing and smiling and getting excited to see her father realize the song and start dancing. Then as the music played on and the moments passed, I witnessed such pure love, joy and pride in his beautiful daughter that it hit me- I was at a wedding working and the ugly cry took over. Thankfully my assistant looked at me, saw the mess that I was and said “pull yourself together!” It was classic. So what does this have to do with my wedding day? Well I am beyond excited to “borrow” this same idea and can't wait to surprise my father with our song Friday night!!
Lesson learned here is that crying is OK, feeling and emotions are OK….this is the week to feel all of these things and embrace it I guess. I just hope that JP doesn't catch too many shots where I look like a big hot mess! (this has “behind the scenes blog post all over it!)
Katie O' (almost Maloney!)